For the Love of a Friend

I have thought that

I was in love with most of my friends

at least once.


I figured out later

sometimes days

sometimes months

and once, years


that I wasn’t in love with them.

I just didn’t know

that I wasn’t.


because I didn’t know

not until recently at least


that friends should care

that they should be kind

that they should want to spend time with you


and that isn’t special.